Time to Let it Sink in: Coriticobasal Syndrome

I took some time.  All of April to be exact, and then some.  Here it is May and I am thawing out my writing impetus after 5 weeks of writer's block.  After getting a new (November 2016) probable diagnosis of a disorder called Corticobasal Syndrome, a member of the Fronto Temporal Disorder family, I ran out of words to say, or write.

First, of all, I am very grateful to our great doctors-- our primary care doctor at the clinic, the various specialists who treat me for everything from choking/swallowing difficulty to severe eye pain, and up to and including the outstanding Movement Disorder Specialist/Neurologist that is working so hard to  find answers to my rare Parkinsonian disorder.

For years, I wrote on this blog (since 2006 with some breaks) details of my experiences, feelings, faith struggles, spiritual plateaus, and thorough verbal descriptions that defined and categorized all of the various Parkinson's Plus syndromes that I am similar to, if not experiencing.

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. -- Galatians 6:9

Now, after all these years, I am at peace.  I have for years been defined as having Parkinsonism and one of the Parkinson's Plus syndromes, most likely Shy Drager. Shy Drager is known as Multiple System Atrophy and I have the hallmark symptom, low blood pressure upon rising from bed or getting up from a sitting posture.  This causes blacking our, loss of oxygen to the head and can be an hours-long condition where my neck and shoulders ache, my arms and upper extremities get a numbness and lack of feeling, and my strength is very limited, causing great fatigue.  This blood pressure issue gives pause to my neurologist and is the reason why in addition to Coricobasal Syndrome (Alien hand and Eye control/focusing/tracking issues) and Parkinsonism (tremors, stiffness, loss of balance, and many other symptoms), I am considered to possibly still have MSA.

My behavior, emotions, thought changes-- an area so personal to me that I can't discuss yet-- means that I am being looked at for Fronto Temporal issues.  FTD is scary.  I don't know what to think about it.  If I am confusing you, just imagine how confused I am.

All I can say is, I am beginning to want to share about these things.  I respect my physicians and want to give them the space and freedom to consider all the avenues and pursue the best truth that describes the need and leads to the best possible treatments.  My Deep Brain Stimulator is working for me and keeps me walking-- at least enough to use my walker.

Today, Karrie is taking me on a very nice outing to Ikea.  That sounds like a lot of fun.  This will require my wheelchair and mean that I will be dodging nice people all day long. It will be great to be out and part of the world for a time.  Just enough time to let it sink in again-- I may be disabled, but I am not grounded.  Not completely.  I have Coricobasal Syndrome:  a loss of cells in my basal ganglia on both sides enough to show up in my DaT scan results and cause the loss of body control that has put me in a walker and stollen my career.

After all this time, I don't have as much to say.  However, I am beginning to want to share again.  I will give it a try, very soon.  Meanwhile, I've got so much to do. I'm a father, a husband, a grandpa and a guitar player!  Life is beautiful, man! Stay tuned-- Patient-Online